I totally forgot how much dating SUCKS!!! I know that I don't need to really date anytime soon, but I want to at least go on dates for fun. I'm not so excited for the heart breaks, and the lies, and the stupid boys. Maybe I'll just be a lesbian. I think that may solve all of my problems. Seriously. Ok not so much. I guess it's just frustrating that potentially, boys won't want to date me just because I'm divorced. My mom told me that would happen. I tell myself I won't want to date those kinds of boys anyway... but it doesn't mean it doesn't hurt some.
I was so excited when I got married because I really thought I wouldn't have to suffer through dating again. Going on dates is fun... but relationships suck. I have so many fears about dating, and boys... and the more boys I meet, the more true my fears become. EVERY boyfriend I ever had, minus one, cheated on me. A lot of guys I know have issues with pornography. Other guys judge my appearance, or whether I'll give them enough action, or my insecurities. BAH! I HATE BOYS, AND I HATE DATING! There. I got it off my chest. :)
I just have a broken engagement to give me angst, but I feel your pain. I worry that someone won't want me when he finds that out, and that it will be worse when he finds out WHY the engagement died... blech. It hurts no matter what, but I wish it was easier for you.
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